I was told I could be good at anything not warned it meant average at everything People grow up, may be I grew down on every chessboard but as a pawn Being born a cluster of potential meant so much more for me to waste The rising star they all looked up to who fell shooting down in a haste There were so many boats to ride I put my feet in all but heart in none Shuffling again and again to find the same Jack of all trades, master of none. I had this picture perfect idea of me painted gold with every medal I landed every teacher and fortune teller so sure a future set in stone waiting to be handed I was my full-marks and my first prizes my monitor badges and assembly applauses my jumping years and too good for my peers my school songs and their genuine cheers my dance rehearsals, the needles and threads my poems and speeches turning heads my raising hands and stunned teachers my voice familiar with the speakers. Now I am this collage of embarrassments everyday reminded to make amendments
On some days, the world isn't fair. Like yesterday and the day before and I don't see how it will be any more Their eyes roll and sign it wasn't enough when you give it all you had and more. Of all the million selves I go through each day the hopeless one is the worst to be for I like to have things in my own hands and have the only one to blame as me. If it were upto me I would survive I would shoot everything in this quiver of mine and if I died in battle I'd rise again for I would learn how to win the next time. But my victories aren't my own to grant My losses come from the ego of strangers A mere chesspiece in their corrupted games the one who has everything to wager. And yet this game of chess is like no other for the pawn is the one to blame They made it so there's only so far I can go and yet I crumble with shame. I can yell "the game is rigged" with all my might a red pill too hard to digest for the ones who won are bas